Heart

Purgatory/Paradise

I’ve given up the Fig Leaf,

I got a new haircut, trimmed my beard

I’ve given up the Chapel,

for the dream of hopeless possibility.

I’ve given up the idea

I was born ever-curious

that Fault was in an apple.

to Cupid’s vocation.

I’ll argue every day

I accepted, many years ago, my nature

that The Effort must improve,

and the futility of looking past my heart.

yet the thought of hopelessness

The hopeless romantic

near to tears did have me move.

herein resides.

Death of the Muse

I had plans for us,
had a future all lined up.
But the futures didn’t cease
with the Shunt of a bus;
plans simply turned Peace
when we turned Grownup.

‘Leave the flowers for the table’

Leave the flowers for the table, boy,
leave the chocolates in the pantry.
Take your case and get to work;
hold your fancies off til Sundays,

then distract yourself with unknowns
and live a life of maybes.
Leave the flowers for the table, boy,
keep your heart no more than sundry.

Love Letter

I speak of you in whispers,
I hold you to no fault,
I act as hopeless
new romantic,
allow Maybe no salt.

I hold Her glassy spindles,
Her fragile weavings through
the space of future
as could-be suitor
to the hopes and dreams of you.

The Moon

I’d tear it down stone by stone.
I’d scar the heavens so even angels understood.
I’d desecrate the emblem of the alone.
And in the rubble find the loss of what could…

Torn

I still remember that feeling,
I still don’t know its name,
I still wish worlds were closer
than half a world away.
My heart is less than here,
but more than I ever knew;
I am more for such a life,
but myself, I’m torn in two.

My Way

I once fell for a girl
whose name I didn’t know,
whom I’d talked with for a midnight hour,
and vowed never to talk to again.

Such has always been my way.

A friend once asked me
if I were a masochist,
how I could let such a unidirectional emotion
direct my life. I had
no answer, and as a crossroads
has reached me once more,
…
I still have no answer.
All I have is experience
in putting shattered pieces of myself
back together to fall once more.

Such has always been my way.